hey-today is 12/28/09. Christmas was very good. I spent it with all my family. I was a little sick though. The next couple of days are going to be rough, lots to do. As far as anxiety, it’s been so much better – I should say its stabilizing. But I hate when I can feel pain, it’s the worst pain I’ve ever felt in the world. Life is so hard – I would have never expected to turn out this way. It’s a fight – Hopefully now that I’m stabilized, I can get better slowly. I want a family and a husband. I want to smile. I want to like myself. I want to love myself. I enjoyed acting. I want to continue with it. I hope I get good and act in plays. I want to meet somebody – I want to be in love. I have to be patient. Love will find its way. Ok goodnite. Peace.
The secret life of a teacher with anxiety