I hate YOU. You’re not going to bring me down. Or will you? Stay in the moment. Stay true to yourself. Love yourself. Love ME. Love YOU. YOU’RE who makes me ME. You f*cking f*ck!
Wandering Mind
It’s 10:40pm in a school night. Today was Monday. I took off work today after having the last 10 days off. I needed it, I promise. It was a mental health day and after having suicidal thoughts yesterday, I thought it was necessary to take the day to love my daughter and regroup.
I tried to go to bed at 9. Now it’s 10:43. Ugh! My mind wanders. I’m thinking of all the ways that possibly might make me happy. Too many options and what if I make a move and then I’m not happy? Then what? All I know is I love my daughter. Thank God for her!!!
10:45. Should I read? Should I buy things online? I already browsed social media and that made me feel like 💩. 10:46, it took me 30 seconds to find the 💩 emoji. 10:47.
I hope I’m not too tired for work tomorrow. It’s always hard to go back after a break. According to my boyfriend, I think I lose my mind around this time. He knows the cycle better than I do.
Ok retail therapy it is. I needed a new bikini for my mom bod anyway! Peace out, 10:49